"Greystone Chapel"

August 22nd, 2022

Hi friends. I don't know how much I've talked about it, but I finished the last leg of cleaning the basement for the most part. Very proud of that. Unfortunately, my father doesn't care or doesn't want to admit his house is a mess. I'm really happy about it though. Gotta repaint the cieling with Kilz paint (I think I mentioned this the other day). It was kind of emotional with the things I've found cleaning. Lots of notes from my mother from around when I was born. I got a bit emotional but now it's done! Gives you a lot to think about. Alijah and Ellie (two friends who've passed in the last year-ish) have weighed heavily on my mind as of late. Their deaths have affected me more than I thought they would a year later. I get so nervous, worse than ever, for my friends. Not that I have many these days, I've been kind of a hermit. People are so frail. I wish I could explain these things to the people close to me, but they won't get it. I wrote a long note the other day to a friend and threw it away. These feelings are often too painful to consider for long. I miss them so desperately with every fiber of my being. That's something many can't empathize with, not that that's a bad thing. If anything, I am glad nobody experiences that kind of thing. Just what's been on my mind a lot. I think I'll feel better after work tonight. First day back in 2 weeks, wish me luck!


Syd W.